Life's short and what I've realized tonight is that things will go on no matter how bad they seem and soon enough I'm just going to forget. So as bad as it hurts right now, life goes on and things will get better. After my mom saw the movie "We Bought a Zoo", she always quoted it and told us to use our 20 seconds of courage. I always kind of resented it because I would think to myself, "I have courage and I know what I'm doing." But honestly, I'm really not courageous. I'm afraid to talk to people because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm afraid that I will get turned away by everyone. But the thing that I realized is so what? So what if those one or two people don't like me? At least I tried. So from now on I'm going to try and use this as my motto:
"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it."
So even though I made a fool out of myself with that one cute boy. Or even if I scared people off by being my weird self, at least I tried. And I guess for right now that's good enough for me. Because if I don't ever try, then nothing good is ever going to happen.
