All So New...

So I've never done a blog before. It's gonna be interesting to see how this goes. Pretty much I felt like I should start this because i'm bad about keeping a journal and this is just a way for me to get my thoughts out. It's not really for anyone...just for me. That way I can look back on my time here and remember how crazy/fun/awkward it was. I feel like I need to describe the title of this blog. I can say and do some pretty awkward things. And the thing is, I don't really care anymore. Yeah I care what people think of me and everything but I've realized there is no use in pretending to be someone i'm not and if people can't handle me when i'm being myself then what's the point of trying to impress them with who i'm not? So yes. I'm awkward.

Now to get on to school...I love it here! The atmosphere at BYU is amazing. It can be a little overbearing at sometimes but that's to be expected jumping into a different world than back home. I love being surrounded by people who have the same belief's as me. I love having a prayer before every class. I love calling my professors "Sister" or "Brother". And most of all, I love my friends here. They are so amazing. I really don't think I would have made it through last semester without them. They were always there to support me and to comfort me. Being homesick is the worst. And it hit me really bad last semester. I felt like no one else understood my situation because everyone acts so put together. But that's the thing. It's just an act. And I think I finally realized it when I started to talk to my friends about how I was feeling and they were in the same boat. That's the thing about your first year away from home. Everyone acts like they have everything all down. When most of us are in the same boat. Totally confused. A little scared about the future. And missing everything back home.

This semester will be different hopefully. I've had one semester to learn from and i'm going to try things differently now. I've learned that its okay to get help. And that's what I need in this life. Whether it's help from my friends, teachers, or Heavenly Father. Heavenly Father has been my best friend through all of this. He is there to listen to me and to comfort me and to give me guidance. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't pray or read the scriptures. They are so important. And I've really gained a testimony of prayer and reading the scriptures since I've been here. So if you don't pray, then do it. And if you don't read your scriptures, then do it. It will make you stronger. Well that's all i'm going to write for now. But i'll be back. Most likely with awkward stories of my life here. Don't worry, there's plenty =]